TONGUE RING

Ok here's a bad picture of my new 1 day old tongue piercing. Am very proud as I walked out feeling so jazzed bout the whole thing that I almost jumped for joy. Of course if you would know what I went through before that tryin to not cry every time I thought of how much it might hurt. LOL

Ok so I sat down in the chair shaking in my boots (literally) and listening to the lady who was doing it (ok I wasn't really paying attention I admit it) while she was getting ready all I could think of was "what the fuck am I doing here?" lol

So she set up and got my tongue "ready" and tried not to look at the needled (which I can honestly say I DIDN'T). Ok so she tells me to take a deep breath.....and release it slowly as I did that she pushed the needle through and capped the top then put the barbell through....omfg I was fine I didn't pass out....puke....cry....or DROOL!!!

I stepped off the thing excited and feeling like I wanted to hug her but I was afraid of hurting her as I was so fuckin' happy. Anyways my tongue didn't swell up a bit till today when I woke up...but the swelling has gone down for the most part.

Wednesday I go and get my barbell changed to a smaller one as this one is a bit too big (of course) and I am having a hard time chewing lol.

Well I have to say this was a great experience considering I have wanted to get this done for almost 10yrs lol. How sad is that and I had to go by myself, no one to hold my hand...no one to cheer me on nothing...just me :D

Oh well that's it for now...hubby is home for anther 3 days and then he's gone again for 2-4 weeks.

Comments pleaseeeeeee tell me what you think!!

Aight so this post has no title...just a warning...I will be ranting, cursing, swearing and perhaps even wondering why God would let this happen. So unless any of the above offends you keep reading.

So I woke up late today to take S to school, to be exact an hour late so I raced up got ready got the kids ready, ran out to start the van in order to have it warm when we got in. When I got outside I noticed about 10feet of snow (not very good at measurements but that is how it feels out there) and I proceeded to clean off the van...the drive side mostly as that was the direction the wind was coming from. As I came around the van (around the back) I noticed that there was a large break in my back window. I was as you can imagine upset.

So I turned off the van gave up trying to make anything usefull of this day and called the school to let them know that my windshield was busted and I wouldn't be taking the kids anywhere. I would see them again Monday.

Of course I then proceeded to cry as this was very upsetting, how could this be possibly happening. I screamed under my breath "FUCK!!!" and called my husband who of course I couldn't get a hold of as he was at work (sort of, will explain in a minute), then I called my dad as my father would know what to do in a situation like this.

He told me to call the Glass company that does windshields and get an estimate done. I figured it would be $600 but after getting off the phone with the guy he quoted me $377. THANK GOD for that lol at least one thing was gonna go right.

Ok so here comes the next part of my exciting last 24hrs.

So last night I was sitting here waiting for my husband to call me to let me know he's home from work and see how the kids are etc. Well when I hadn't heard from him by 10pm I started to get worried he would usually call me once he got done work and was on his way home (an hour away). Well I called his coworkers room and K answered, I asked him where my husband was and he said "oh he's in the Hospital" my heart skipped a beat...."Excuse me WHAT!"

Ya that's where the convo got interesting. Turns out yesterday around 7pm he had been taken to the Hospital in order to get his back checked as it was hurting pretty badly and company policy is to take the person to the H. Anyways after a few hours there he was told it was a pulled muscle. Weeeeeeeeee GREAT so he will be out of work now for about a week and I have to pay for a windshield out of a one week paycheck on top of our regular bills.

Oh here's the clincher lol you're gonna love this part. I asked the Glass guys what time I could bring it in (remember I have no back windshield) and they said the part would be in tomorrow and I could bring the van in at 3pm. Uhm What the fuck am I supposed to do in the meantime leave it out there to get stolen.....oh boy what a day and when I tried guntaping plastic to the van it wouldn't stick because of course, IT'S FROZEN!!!!

So my day has gone from sleeping in = bad to perhaps not having a van when I wake up in the morning to take it in to get it fixed = worse.

So I refuse to leave my house as well 1. I have no vehicle and there is wayyyy too much snow out there. 2. My luck hasn't gotten any better yet today so I refuse to let badluck get the best of me and leave the house.

So I am not sure how anyone can say anything in my comments section to make me feel better but I doubt it and oh ya...don't tell me your grandparents just died etc as this would 1. honestly not surprise me 2. They were old like you didn't see that coming

The above is a whole other rant lol that I could get into and it would surely surprise some people that I would even think this way. Besides this is about me so if you're gonna whine about your day...please don't my day has been bad enough without having to listen to other people try to out-badluck me.

Sorry for being so rude but I have had enough today...not sure how much more I can take before I really lose it on a person and hurt their feelings (which again honestly wouldn't bother me today lmfao).

EBAY!!!

Ok so I haven't been very active on my blog these past few days as I have been spending most of my time living on ebay. Go figure I have won lots of great items I have to say for dirt cheap lol.

I have to say it can get out of hand lol speaking from personal experiences. So I will be back again for the next week till next payday lmfao.

Ok if you have any great stories you wanna share with me or not so great regarding your experiences on ebay go for it would love to hear that I am not the only addicted person on this planet.

It's been a little while since I last posted so perhaps I should keep everyone updated. Nothing much has happened. LOL go figure right you start reading expecting some amazing news of why this person hasn't done a new blog in a few days and they got NOTHING!

Well tomorrow is a big day am nervous, excited and scared all at the same time....it's S's first day at Kindergarten arghhhhhhhhh

I have already packed her lunch and it's waiting for her in the fridge for tomorrow morning. I also have to remember to set my alarm as the last time I was up at 7am for a good reason I was getting paid for it and I had to get ready for work...and let's just say its been a while.

So I will get up at 7am have a shower then get the kids up and dressed, breakfast done and out the door to school we go. It's my little baby's first day and I just know I will blubber like a little baby.

She's my baby, ok well she's almost 4 and it's time to cut the umbilical cord I know and I still have little J in the house to keep me busy as he is a handful let me tell you lol. This is my little girl going off to school. I have always dreaded this day from the day I gave birth to her as I have pretty much always been home with her or she was at a friends house with her little boy while I was at work so I wasn't really worried, but now it's SCHOOL.

Well as you can see I have great anxiety over this matter as I am not sure how she is gonna react it could go either way. She will either not wanna leave and go inside with the other kids (which of course will make me cry as I will feel like I have to abandon her somewhere she don't wanna go), or the other option is she will forget I even exist and run off to be with the other kids and I will be left standing there with a dumb look on my face thinking "wow, no kiss bye no hug she's just gone". Either way I will cry hysterically lol.

Well that's all I have for now, oh ya hubby is scheduled to come home sometime between the 15th of March and the end of March. So I will have to also pack my digital camera to take pictures of my little girl at her first day at school. *CRIES*

Ok ok I am fine I swear, promise I will live and I will get sleep tonight no matter what (gives a look of bullshit), I won't sleep a wink I can tell you that much. LOL

Well leave me comments please I could use the support of other parents out there with their first day at school experiences. I am sure I will be back tomorrow night flogging bout her first day at school and what happened, besides the fact of me crying hysterically all the way home.

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This was given to me by a good friend regarding our months and our personalities. Well I have to say as you can read below it speaks true for me almost completely.

Here is more of me sharing with you about me.

October

Loves to chat - uhm how true ask rina lol

Loves those who love him/her - yep only hate those that hate me first

Loves to take things at the centre

Attractive and suave - I like to think so and I don't really care who begs to differ lol

Inner and physical beauty - I have a great personality till you rub me the wrong way

Does not lie or pretend - what good does it to...eventually the liar gets caught, no point

Symapthetic - ok that one I have to differ with as I hate sympathy lol unless it is dully needed

Treats friends importantly - those that are true friends deserve it

Always making friends - unless it's LS1 lol

Easily hurt but recovers easily - yep no point crying over spilt milk "suck it up princess"

Daydreamer - yep true

Very opinionated - gee like ya'll didn't know that already lol

Does not care what others think - hence why Bit's forum don't bother me one bit :D

Emotional - I can be depending on situation

Decisive - yep

Strong clairvoyance - wow didn't expect that to be mentioned : ask hubby and rina bout that

Loves to travel, the arts and literature - gawd do I ever

Soft-spoken, loving and caring Romantic - ya I do love the mushy crap

Touchy and easily jealous Concerned - yep : I get horribly jealous

Loves outdoors - I used to go camping, haven't been since I had kids will have to go again soon

Just and Fair - well I am a Libra ffs

Spend thrift and easily influenced - gawd I love to shop hence why I am an ebay addict

Easily lose confidence - yep something has to work the first time otherwise "hammer time"

Loves children - I do, well sometimes lol jk I used to work in a daycare with 20 kids a day it was insane lol

This is a story written for another contest (I know ppl just bare with me would ya this is what I got take it or leave it lol) mystickal Incense I hope you all enjoy this and if you don't...too bad it's posted till I post again.

It was a cold rainy day and Sarah was walking down the street looking in closed store shops wondering where her life was going. It was definitely not as she had planned at her young age of 27 she had planned to be married by 25 and have had started a family by now. Yet she was living in a one bedroom apartment alone (and it wasn't even that nice of an apartment) she had a few friend's from work other then that she had no one else.

She walked past a small Diner that had barely any lights on it was so dark and gloomy you almost could mistake it for being Closed. There was a shape sitting in a booth starring outside. She couldn't make out who it was but she noticed he was looking right at her. As soon as she realized it she quickly looked away, when out of the corner of her eye she seen this shape get up and walk over to the door. She now started to get nervous she was a young female late at night out on the street...what if this guy was a murderer or rapist. She began to walk, fast when she heard a voice call out to her "Sarah?".

She stopped but did not turn around as she couldn't figure out who this person was...she thought bout his voice if she recognized it, nothing.

"Sarah!" He yelled louder.

She turned and realized who this person was with the dark hair standing a good 6' in height wearing a long coat drenched with rain.

"John? Oh my I haven't seen you in years what have you been up to? What brings you to this small city?"

She then realized that she had asked way too many questions, she began to giggle uncontrollably.

"I am so sorry for bombarding you, you just surprised me is all."

"It's ok Sarah I am actually glad to see you. I have been thinking a lot about you lately."

"You have?"

She said surprised, since the last time they saw each other they were standing at the Alter her in a beautiful flowing wedding gown with real pearls stitched threw it and a vail to die for. Then there was John dressed in a suit that made his deep blue eyes stand out and his dark hair was lightly tussled as he was nervous. Then she remembered what happened just as they were to start their vows....she looked into those deep eyes and said in the most honest way possible that she couldn't get married this day.

That was basically the last she had seen of him, their relationship afterwards had never been the same again, he couldn't understand why she didn't go through with it if she loved him as he had no doubt in his mind he loved her otherwise he wouldn't have proposed.

"How have you been Sarah? I have missed you."

She looked at him and couldn't tell him that she hadn't been doing anything important and every night she cried herself to sleep for making the biggest mistake of her life, letting this man go and not stopping him no matter how many chances he had given her to explain what was going on.

"You know, this and that. I started a new job at the newspaper in town. Just an editor but I am having fun."

"That's good Sarah I am happy for you."

He hadn't been happy since the day he had moved out of their place they had built together, the memories they had made and the place he had hoped they would raise their children in. He missed holding her but she had broken his heart the day she told him at the Alter she couldn't marry him without explanation. He was uncertain whether he could do that again.

"Sarah I think we need to talk, in fact I have been trying to figure out how to get a hold of you and talk to you about that day."

"I know John, I have been thinking that as well, I just don't know what to tell you or how to explain something I don't even understand."

He took her by the arm and led her inside the Diner where it was dry and warm. She sat down at the booth he had been sitting at when he stepped over to the gentlemen behind the counter and ordered them both coffee's, he didn't have to ask how she liked it as he still remember even after all this time how she took her coffee. He came back to the table and sat down across from her, just starring at her wondering what had happened between them.

"John..."

"Sarah, please let me go first there are some things I have been wanting to tell you for a very long time and have not been practicing on how to say them and what words to use."

"Sarah." He took her hands in his and he continued.

"I have loved you since the day I laid eyes on you at college that first semester or Journalism class. I knew that moment when you walked in all uncertain and holding your books tight that I would love you forever no matter what would happen between us. That still holds true no matter what happened that day in church I will never stop loving you. Now I wanna explain to you why I left."

"John please." She had tears flowing down her cheeks holding his hand she remembered that day oh so well it almost pained her to go back to that moment.

"John please let me explain as I am the one that started all this that day not you. You did the right thing by leaving me as neither one of us was the same again afterwards. I do love you, John that is the first thing I want to say. I have never stopped loving you and I wanted nothing more then to be your wife, but I realized something that day standing at the Alter, all of our family's there and friends the priest. I realized that I am not worthy of such a wonderful man, there are things about me John that you don't know, in fact no one knows."

"Sarah, whatever it is, you know I will stand beside you no matter what. You are the perfect one for me always have been, no matter what you think you did or did wrong I am sure it's nothing."

"John, no you don't understand I have done something horrible that I don't think you will ever see me the same way again."

"What is it Sarah, please your breaking my heart by not telling me."

She took a deep breath and just jumped head first.

"John, when I was 15 I gave birth to a little girl. I gave her up for adoption as it was wrong for a young girl of that age to have a child and to raise it. No man would want me if I had a child. Well that day I realized when we were standing at that Alter that I could not get married with this secret hanging over our lives. I always had dreamed that someday I could find my little girl and have her be my Maid of honor at my Wedding. She was tore out of my hands in the hospital. I never got to say goodbye."

"Oh Sarah." He came around the booth and took her in his arms. He just held her and weeped with her.

"Sarah, I love you and we can get through this together, you are never alone as long as I am in your heart."

"John, I feel so horrible for making you feel the way you have, pushing you away, hurting you."

He holds her closer and gently brushing her hair back. He pulls up her chin so her mouth aligns with his. He looks deep into her eyes to show her how much he loves her and will never leave her again no matter how hard she pushes him. He kisses her gently, the taste of tears against his lips knowing now that everything will be fine from now on.

She has craved his touch his kiss for so long and there it was, the acceptance of her secret and her shame finally she felt free to love once again openly and never again would she be afraid of what the uncertainty would hold.

OBSESSION WITH PORN?

Here is a question for all you out there: what is the obsession with porn. I mean if you think about it logically all these women who are on there are someone's daughter. Now would you want your daughter on there doing what these women do?

Personally I don't see what the great fascination is with it. I mean I have a little girl and I could not imagine finding out 20yrs down the road that she is doing porn and selling herself in this way. I feel for all those parents out there that have their daughters doing this. Of course for men to be in porn movies it is a completely different thing (double standards what a surprise). For men it is "Wow you are awesome dude, you get to sleep with woman and be in movies and get paid". For woman it is much different.

We look at woman in porn movies as "sluts", "whores", selling their bodies for money. On one hand it is their bodies and they can do what they want with it and it is their own lives they are putting at risk of getting diseases etc. On the other hand, what is the great obsession with men and watching these movies?

I have asked several men regarding this matter (yes I have gotten strange looks and strange debates) and the answer is always the same, "its something else to look at".

Now for a single male to watch porn I can understand why you do it, but for married men why? Explain this to me as I just don't understand it. You have a woman there that you love and perhaps has had a few kids doesn't quite look the way she did before hand with a few stretchmarks etc. This can be quite degrading for this woman as she may feel less attractive as you are busy watching porn and these woman are skinny, most with big tits and will do some impossible things that the average female wouldn't do.

Now some woman try hard to please their husbands but yet these men are drawn to porn like fly to shit. I don't comprehend this matter.

If anyone has any ideas why this may be, as currently all I seem to get is the same answer and it does not satisfy my curiosity of this matter. If I get a proper answer out of a male I might stop asking my male friends this question.

QUIZZZZZ

1) Single or Taken: Taken
2) Your Age: 27
3) Sign: Libra
4) Siblings: 1 brother
5) Hair color: medium brown
6) Eye color: Blue
7) Shoe size: 8
8) Full name as stated on birth certificate: Kathrin Daniela

R e l a t i o n s h i p s:
1. Who is your best friend(s)?: Melanie and Rina
2. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: married

S t u f f:
1. Where is your favorite place to shop: uhm without much of a choice...wal mart lol only decent place in town
2. Do you have any piercings?:Yes

S p e c i f i c s:
1. Have you ever done drugs?: Yep
2. What kind of shampoo do you use?: Whatever is in my bathroom
3. What are you most scared of?: Spiders
5. Who is the last person that called you?: Hubby
6. Where do you want to get married?: Well if I had to do it over again....who am I kidding I dont wanna get married again...just wanna have a Honeymoon lol
7. How many buddies are online right now?: 2
8. What would you change about yourself?: Outside or inside hmmm well outside I would look like I did when I was 21 (I was hot) and on the inside more patience

H a v e Y o u E v e r:
1. Given anyone a bath?: Yes uhm remember I have kids
2. Smoked?: Yes

3. Bungee jumped?: No
4. Made yourself throw up?: no
5. Skinny dipped?:No

6: Ever been in love?:Yes
7. Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes
8. Pictured your crush naked?: Uhm does my husband have to read this (YES I have pictured him naked but not telling who he is :O maybe its a she)
9. Actually seen your crush naked?: YES
10. Cried when someone died?: Yes
11. Fallen for your best friend?: Yes
12. Been rejected?: Yes but uhm he aint around to tell about it *maniacal laugh*
13. Rejected someone?: Ya I mean otherwise I wouldn't be with my hubby
14. Used someone?: maybe
15. Done something you regret?: Regret is for the weak of heart...and let's face it regretting isn't gonna change what has happened

C u r r e n t:
-Clothes: comfy pants and tshirt
-Hair: ponytail
-Book you're reading: The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell & Dustin Thomason
-In cd player: Mixed CD
-In dvd player: Pick a Disney movie its probably in there :

L a s t P e r s o n:
-You touched: My son-Hugged: Daughter
-You imed: Rina

A r e Y o u:-Understanding: Yeah I think so-Open-minded: I think so
-Arrogant: No
-Insecure: At times
-Random: Sometimes
-Hungry: No
-Smart: yep
-Moody: YES
-Hard working: I have two kids one has a learning disability and the other is like his father nuff said
-Organized: You bet
-Difficult: oh yes, I can be
-Bored easily: yes
-Obsessed:yes very much so

R a n d o m:
-In the morning I am: tired
-All I need is: family aka hubby and kids
-I dream about: Hubby coming home early

O p p o s i t e S e x:
-What do you notice first: hair
-Last person you danced with: kids we danced to shrek
-Who do you have a crush on: Hubby
-Who has a crush on you: Hubby

D o Y o u E v e r:
-Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to come on?:no I just wait for my hubby to call me soI sit by the phone which happens to be by the computer lol

-Wish you were younger: No
-Cried because someone said something to you?: yes

N u m b e r:
Of times I have had my heart broken:3x
Of hearts I have broken:don't know didn't stick around long enough to find out lol
Of continents I have lived in: 2
Of cds I own: oh 50 or so
Of scars on my body: chicken pox a few other then that not really

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s:
1. Do you like fillings these out?: no too many questions
2. Gold or silver: silver (despite me wearing a gold diamond and my wedding band that is gold lol
3. What was the last film you saw at the movies?: Movies what are those...big screen no Disney huh unheard of lol

Hope you enjoy this

I am missing my husband. Some of you might remember how I was feeling a little down for the fact that he was away till Spring. Well good news happened and he came home for 6 days which is why I was A.W.O.L and didn't write in my blog.

So my husband (pictured above) came home on Sunday night and he left last night again but this time he is gone for 2 more months. It had only been a month since I last seen him now I have to go twice as long without seeing him.

I didn't want him to leave yesterday when he walked out the door with all his gear, it was one of the hardest things I have had to do.

The first time he left it was easier in a way as we didn't know he was going so nothing was different, he went out to the truck and he was told to pack a bag so he came in and started packing I was so busy running around making sure he had everything I didn't really think about the fact that it could be months before I see him again. Well it sunk in afterwards but it was easier. This time we had the entire time he was here to prepare for it again, doing his laundry packing his bag etc. It was one of the saddest and happiest weeks of my life.

All I can say it that these next two months are gonna be the longest in my life.

On a brighter side....my daughter S is going to Kindergarten this year, like in two weeks. So she has a learning disability with her speech (basically she doesn't wanna talk or pronounce words) so she is funded by the gov't in getting an Aid for school. So Hubby and I while he was here made an appt with the person responsible for this Aid program and she said that it would be best for S to start Kindergarten instead of preschool as the Aid and funding is better and she would be in with kids her own age.

We are thrilled but again Hubby will miss her first day so lots of pics will be taken.

I wanted to write something about these two things I have posted above here but what more can I say other then...it is true.

Let me know your thoughts on these, would love to hear them.

Why is it that our little "angels" are not truly angels as they may appear? My daughter pictured above looks like the perfect little girl, innocent smile, bright blue eyes, yet she has a way to make me wanna tear our my hair.

I am not sure why she has this way perhaps it is simply because she knows how to push all my buttons (she is my daughter after all), or perhaps it is because I see myself in her and it reminds me that perhaps my parent's were right. LOL

Ok so I have this problem, well I have many problems lol but one problem at a time. So my daughter is now spitting....yes you heard me SPITTING!

She spits everywhere and I have to blame the movie Shrek it all started with the dragon breathing fire, she imitated that and next thing you knew spit came flying out of her mouth, "wow that's pretty neat let's see what happens if I continue to do this....wow more spit". The rest is history.

Now I have tried time-outs, I have tried to put her in her room, I have even given her a light swat on the mouth when she spits...NOTHING has worked.

So I try to deal with it as best as I can, without losing too much hair and ending up bald before my husband comes home from work.

Any advice is appreciated as I have noticed a bald spot on my head. LOL

Aight so today is much better I watched Shall We Dance? and I had a very good cry over it as I feel I needed.

So today I woke up took the kids for a walk as it was +2 out and sunny and warm it was wonderful by the time we left our two feet of snow was almost all melted away. So we went for a walk came home had lunch...then I did my workout it was great. I have been neglecting doing my workout for a couple of days now cause I was feeling like shit but I realize I was feeling this way cause I wasn't doing them, DUH@me.

I have lost 2inches already in two weeks (ok the first week I fell off the wagon a few times on my lifestyle change) but I have been eating right I mean 1200 Calories a day only and the right stuff not gorging food whenever I can lol.

I feel wonderful I wanna look hot for my husband and for me when he returns home so I have a couple more months, gotta step it up. I realize that without my Protein Shake and my workout I feel terrible all day, my body is so used to this now that I better keep it up.

Dieting is bad but you have to make a lifestyle change. I mean you gotta eat right all the time cause a quick fix diet only lasts so long and you are more likely to gain the weight back. Find a program that helps you and teaches you to eat right that's the key.

I plan on looking like that chick in the picture up there (laughs hysterically) someday but for now I wanna be healthy and fit is all. So wish me luck, and by the way the new lifestyle I am on I don't crave junk food and I started this during my "visitor" and usually I can't get enough chocolate and crap in my face cause I crave it.

This is how I feel today. Sad, lonely and missing the love of my life. He's so far away that he can't get a signal on his cell phone so he can only call when he goes into town a million miles away (ok small exaggeration) and that is only every few days.

So I await his phone call impatiently, waiting to speak to him, hear his voice telling me how much he misses me and loves me. *SIGH*

This is our first time apart since we met 3.5yrs ago and it's absolutely tearing a whole inside of me. I can't wait till he gets home again and then won't leave again for another year till next winter, thank God.

So until then I spend my time with my kids, eating healthier and working out and sitting on the pc killing time doing whatever it is I do on here (someday's I even wonder how I manage to kill so much time on here doing absolutely nothing).

I have been doing some reading which I haven't had much time when hubby is home, we are always either watching something or going places. So it's kinda nice to have so much time to spend doing things that so many of us women forget to do once we have a family, take care of ourselves.

Well if you have any encouraging words for me please feel free to comment as I need to be cheered up, feeling a little depressed today. Thank and love to all!

Spooky Girl Contest

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"But mama" the little girl says in an English accent. "Why can't we go to see Grandpa?"

Her mother replies with tears in her eyes, "Emily sweetheart, remember what we talked about last night, Grandpa is up with God now. He's watching over us everyday."

"Mama, can I go see Grandpa where he is?" The small girl trying so hard to understand why she can not see her Grandfather any longer and why he left without saying Goodbye. She clutches her doll that her Grandfather had given her on her 5th birthday with some words of wisdom, "My little Granddaughter always remember, in that doll is your childhood and never be afraid of being a child and living life to the fullest no matter what happens."

Little Emily remembered every word her Grandpa had told her, he was the only father figure in her life and she knew she had a greater love for him then anyone else in this world and being told she could never see him again or talk to him broke her heart. How much she would miss his strong arms cradling her and singing her lullabye's in his rough deep voice. She cherished the days where her mother had to leave for work as then it would just be Grandpa and her. Now, those day's were gone. She only had her mother left to love her and tell her she was beautiful.

"Emily, always remember no matter where I am I will always love you and cherish you, you are my pride and joy." She heard her Grandfather say, tears welled up in her eyes and she held on to her doll as tight as she could swearing never to forget her Grandfather's words to her the day she received her doll.

Flirting Online: How Far Is Too Far

To start this off with I have to show you this website I found. I almost fell over laughing. http://www.onlinedatingschool.com/

Ok so there is harmless flirting and complete shameless flirting where there are other intentions involved other then either being friendly or playing some harmless game to make yourself feel better.

We all have those days where nothing makes us fell much better then a little harmless flirting with someone that says all the right things at the right time. You walk away with your head a little higher (no pun intended), your spirit feels better and you got a certain childlike glow about your face.

Now where this turns into much worse is when you keep going back for more, and you take it further as in making plans to be together or as far as even meeting in secret. Now if you are cybering in someone's box or in email etc that is again GONE TOO FAR!

Now of course if either one of you is single then by all means go for it have a great time with it. If of course you are not...shame on you for letting this friendly flirting go to the next level of shameless flirting and cybering.

This under anyone's category would fall under cheating if you are not single. If you lie about being single (again lying online is a whole other topic) that is still cheating and it is disrespectful to the other party involved as they might not want to be a tramp or hussy, homewrecker etc.

I think a little friendly flirting that you know and the other party know will never go further plus I think you are in fact using the other person to make yourself feel better if you wake up in the morning feeling like shit.

Now I know I will probably get a crap load of shit flying my way from this post and I am ok with that, I never ask ppl to agree with me just hear what I have to say and leave it at that. The world is made with disagreements I am not afraid. Give me your best shot.

CHEATING MEN!

It was brought to my attention through a comment made on my last post from Alice that I had obviously not explored so here I am today exploring that.

The Hussy's and tramps aren't the only one's to blame for cheating, and I totally agree with that the men are just as much at fault, but let's face reality most men couldn't keep their dicks in their pants when they are out with the boy's and in a bad situation where these Hussy's and tramps hang out.

I believe a lot of men recognize the danger areas and stay away from them on purpose as they do not want to be in a bad situation and being a male let themselves not think with the right anatomy.

I know from personal experience that my own husband would not cheat on me as he has told me several times that if you put yourself in a bad situation only bad things will come from it. That is why he stays away from bar's (considering he doesn't drink much), he doesn't go to strip clubs as well DUH! That is your ultimate bad situation, as well as he always tells women he's married as he always has his wedding ring on and is very proud of having his children and I in his life. He tells everyone about us. I literally mean EVERYONE! LOL

If you ever ask a man why he cheated it is simply because he felt more connected to the other person whether he means sexually (no pun intended), or emotionally (was someone that would listen to him). Sometimes in a relationship we forget to listen to our partner so that person whether it be a female or male in the relationship goes off to find that missing piece in their relationship. Now of course if you do not recognize this and do something constructive about it you will fall into the destructive, which could mean doing something that later on you may regret.

Having said the above always think before you act, yes that even goes for men out there that like to forget they have a brain that rides above their waist.

In part I would like to also say that when a person cheats there is always an underlying reason, it was probably not because he wanted to have sex with someone new. It goes much deeper then that. A relationship is give and take and if your always giving or taking then that is not much of a relationship as a relationship is not 50%/50% it is in fact 100%/100% you both have to give and take as much as you can in order to live a balanced life.

So now that I think I have covered all I can without going on forever I would like to say thank you to all those who had great comments on my previous post. Keep them coming folks I always love to read what others have to say in regards to my posts and you never know I might just make a whole blog regarding that. LOL

Ciao ppl and remember your give and take has to be balanced as life is all about balance or karma will kick your ass *giggles*

HUSSY'S AND TRAMPS

Here is a post that most women can relate to. What is it with single women and some married women who just can't accept the fact that a married man is in fact MARRIED!

You see these single women going after married men. Now I understand that men have little or no willpower when confronted with a beautiful charming single young woman. Here is my beef with all this. Do you really want to be known as a homewrecking bitch?

I understand that a married man is very attractive to a single female considering that obviously he's got qualities that women are looking for as he is married. Ok I know I am being very general as some married men are asshole's even though they are in fact married, but that is besides the point. I am looking at the good married men that women as soon as they see that wedding band have to go after. I mean get real ladies do you really know what they wife is capable of?

I personally would probably go off the deep end if I found any female hitting on my man. I believe I have that right to go after her and potentially hurt her. I mean I am by nature a very protective person over what is legally mine. By marriage my husband is legally mine. We have agreed to go with each other and no one else.

It just really ticks me off when I hear about single women going after married men as if there aren't enough available men to go around why do you have to hit on mine?

People's Opinion's, Do They Really Matter?

Do people's opinion really matter? No I don't think it does matter what other ppl think. Seriously if what you feel is right to do who is to say if that is right for you? Not a single person in this world other then you can say whether this is destructive or not.

Who are those ppl who feel the need to stick their nose into anything and everything you are doing and have to give their two cents? I believe they are selfish ppl who only want what is not gonna harm them in some ridiculous way.

For example: My friend's boyfriend that she has never met and has talked to online now for over a year has proposed to her. Now personally knowing this person I believe she would not do anything without thinking it through thoroughly. I know her intentions for doing this and when she asked her "friends" their reaction was less then nice.

When she told me my first thought was...and what's the problem? LOL then she told me that her "friends" cussed her out for wanting to get married to this gentleman that she felt was so right for her. Well she was told all kinds of horrible things and felt very invalidated for this. I don't blame her really. I mean WHO THE HELL ARE YOU FOR TELLING HER SHE'S BEING DESTRUCTIVE etc. Your nobody that's who.

I reassured her that if she had no doubt in her mind about this then there is no one in this world that can tell her what to do or what not to do only herself can make that decision.

Needless to say I think those of you who think giving your two cents about anything and everything just to make yourself feel better in this small world or are afraid that you might lose this person, that she will be too busy with her HAPPY new life to talk to you I say: SUCK IT UP PRINCESS AND GET OVER IT!

If you only have your own best interest in mind when telling a person your opinion and doing so in the wrong way then you don't deserve to say anything. Keep your mouth shut and stand beside your friend no matter what she decides even if in the end it doesn't work out cause that's what friends do.

The Every Day Happenings

Ok today I have no show stopping topics to discuss, as well as I have no new news to share with you all. In fact I have nothing much to say at all which is kind of sad. I found out last night that my husband that is working for an Oilfield Company (service oilwells in Alberta) won't be back home until First Break aka when the ground is unthawed. *cries* so my husband won't return for a few months and honestly I have to tell you all that he's only been gone for a week and I wish he was coming back...yet I know he's not yet. He calls everynight when he's done work which means most days I am already in bed by the time he's done work...great paychecks not so great cause he's doing most days 10-13hr days.

Of course at this rate we will be buying a house by spring time which is good for us. So I guess overall it's good for the family overall. Well as you can all read this blog is just bout my everyday life, which consists of getting up with my two kids, breakfast, playtime, lunch, playtime, naptime, suppertime, story time, and finally bedtime. Not very exciting.

So there you have. Thank you bloggers for being my support while my husband is away as without being able to come on here and read all what ppl have to say and writing about what is happening in my life and what I think I might just go insane. BIG HUG TO ALL OF YOU!!!!