QUITTING SMOKING!

OMFG what was I thinking quitting at a time like this. Well technically it was not my idea completely. I am going in for surgery tomorrow and well the Doc who is putting me under said I had to stop smoking Monday morning at 7am so here I am at 10am going nuts already.

I have no idea how I am going to make it through the next 24hrs till my surgery. Then I got the bright idea to just quit completely. Hello dumb right lol. Well let me enlighten you why this is such a bad time in my life to quit at least for another month or so.

Well my children sleep in the same room they are 4 and 2 yrs of age. The 2 yr old decides that it is a good time at bedtime to bug the holy hell out of his sister. I mean straight harass her. He gets in her bed stomps on her pillow lays ontop of her and basically does everything in his powers so she can't sleep. My daughter responds with screaming at the top of her lungs like someone is murdering her. It's wonderful.

The other reason this is a bad time is we just bought a house a little higher mortgage then we hoped for lmfao who am I kidding we bought a more expensive house then my parents have after being together for 20yrs hahahahahahaha lmfao.

Our move in date was supposed to be the end of August but let's face it that is too close to my daughter starting school again. So we are gonna try to have everything packed in less then a month plus paperwork plus my surgery all in 4 weeks.

So now I am trying to make my life more miserable for the next month by trying to quit smoking lmfao what the hell was I thinking. Let's face it bad time to quit smoking. My girlfriend is trying to convince me that any time in life is a bad time cause she quit smoking a little while ago and she is doing awesome but still damn it I don't wanna quit anymore.

Ok I think I am having an official mental breakdown. I wanna crawl out of my skin I wanna scream and jump and run around the room. Fuckin' Doc and his advice to stop smoking 24hrs before surgery what the hell is wrong with him. Damn him and his anti-smoking campaign.

I hate everyone right now. In fact I am fighting with my best friend of 15yrs on msn lmfao bout quitting. Ok we aren't really fighting but damn it she is right I know it but at the same time I wanna punch her in the face lol.

Ok I guess I will be blogging more again since I have something to say. I will let you all know how my surgery went. Oh ya I forgot, I am getting a tubal, for those not familiar it is where I get my tubes burnt shut so I can't have anymore kids. Yeahhhh I got two one girl one boy and that is good with me and hubby too. I told hubby if he wanted another kid to let me know but he would have to want it desperately and I would have one more for him.

Well that is all for now I am sure I have more to say but I don't wanna say it all now and have nothing left tomorrow.