Another death around me....do I look like the Grimm Reaper? Just curious.

So a friends of my mom's who used to babysit me when I was little her husband died this morning of Cancer. His liver then his heart gave out. He was diagnosed with cancer only a few months ago. I didnt even know he had cancer.

I can't believe it, but you know what they say "everything comes in three's" let's hope this time it is wrong not sure if I could handle another death. I mean I wasnt that close to both these ppl but it still is a schocker to find out someone died that you knew.

My gf of 15yrs said the lady who died earlier that I posted about was the 8th person that had died that she knew from school. I was totally blown away by that as that was my first...well now I have my second.

It is hard for me to be upset over death. Especially if the person was ill as we all knew this person would die eventually. It is inevitable. I mean we are all gonna die it is how the person dies that shocks us the most I think.

If a person was ill with a disease that has no cure or the person is old I find it hard to be sad, it is something that you just have to accept cause 1. you can't change it, what is done is done 2. the person was old or sick and they are in a better place now or reincarnated depending on what you believe.

I tend not to cry a lot over things like known-death. I am not afraid of dying....I am afraid of how I will die and the family hurting afterwards. I think death itself is ok what hurts is all the ppl you will leave behind. Knowing the suffering they will go through and how much you yourself will miss them.

I am sure a lot of ppl might comment on this as it is a little off the wall thinking over death.

Did I mention I have no clue how or what to say when someone tells me someone close to them has died....I have no clue what to say as I have a hard time showing sympathy and empathy for someone that I hardly knew or well...even if I knew them.

The last time I cried over a death was my greatgrandmother she past away 1week before my 15th bday. I was close to this woman I lived in her house till the age of 6. So yes I was close to her and that is the last time I remember showing true emotion, except of course for my children.