QUITTING SMOKING!

OMFG what was I thinking quitting at a time like this. Well technically it was not my idea completely. I am going in for surgery tomorrow and well the Doc who is putting me under said I had to stop smoking Monday morning at 7am so here I am at 10am going nuts already.

I have no idea how I am going to make it through the next 24hrs till my surgery. Then I got the bright idea to just quit completely. Hello dumb right lol. Well let me enlighten you why this is such a bad time in my life to quit at least for another month or so.

Well my children sleep in the same room they are 4 and 2 yrs of age. The 2 yr old decides that it is a good time at bedtime to bug the holy hell out of his sister. I mean straight harass her. He gets in her bed stomps on her pillow lays ontop of her and basically does everything in his powers so she can't sleep. My daughter responds with screaming at the top of her lungs like someone is murdering her. It's wonderful.

The other reason this is a bad time is we just bought a house a little higher mortgage then we hoped for lmfao who am I kidding we bought a more expensive house then my parents have after being together for 20yrs hahahahahahaha lmfao.

Our move in date was supposed to be the end of August but let's face it that is too close to my daughter starting school again. So we are gonna try to have everything packed in less then a month plus paperwork plus my surgery all in 4 weeks.

So now I am trying to make my life more miserable for the next month by trying to quit smoking lmfao what the hell was I thinking. Let's face it bad time to quit smoking. My girlfriend is trying to convince me that any time in life is a bad time cause she quit smoking a little while ago and she is doing awesome but still damn it I don't wanna quit anymore.

Ok I think I am having an official mental breakdown. I wanna crawl out of my skin I wanna scream and jump and run around the room. Fuckin' Doc and his advice to stop smoking 24hrs before surgery what the hell is wrong with him. Damn him and his anti-smoking campaign.

I hate everyone right now. In fact I am fighting with my best friend of 15yrs on msn lmfao bout quitting. Ok we aren't really fighting but damn it she is right I know it but at the same time I wanna punch her in the face lol.

Ok I guess I will be blogging more again since I have something to say. I will let you all know how my surgery went. Oh ya I forgot, I am getting a tubal, for those not familiar it is where I get my tubes burnt shut so I can't have anymore kids. Yeahhhh I got two one girl one boy and that is good with me and hubby too. I told hubby if he wanted another kid to let me know but he would have to want it desperately and I would have one more for him.

Well that is all for now I am sure I have more to say but I don't wanna say it all now and have nothing left tomorrow.

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I need to rant just a little bit. My husband was gone for 10days with work he was told he was coming back to work with his original crew etc and we figured he was working around the city so he could at least be home every night and sleep in his own bed.

So he came home late Wednesday night at 9:30pm he was back at work at 8:30am Thursday which was no big deal he was still scheduled to work another 10days in order to get his 4days off etc. He called me from work at around 11am and told me that he was leaving town again....TODAY.

Ok now I don't know if the ppl who schedule the crews around etc realize that half these ppl have families that at some point they would like to see them.

I freaked I was so mad that they sent him home only to 12hrs later send him away again. I was so mad that I even told him to quit his job lol ok I know a little irrational but hell I was mad.

So he's been gone two days, we are on day number three now and supposedly he's coming home. As much as I love my husband I don't want him home for him to only leave again. So I am trying not to get too excited that he's coming home tonight cause you never know.

On a lighter note my lil S is doing wonderful. She was diagnosed with Autistic Spectrum Disorder 1 month ago and we are so proud of the way she is doing in school. She is learning sign language to help her communicate as that is her big hurdle right now is Speech. So her Aid is learning sign language and she is picking it up wonderfully.

We are all so proud of her and she is speaking and signing all at the same time so she is doing great. I am meeting with an aid for the summer on Monday to see if she will be S aid for the summer month while there is no school to take her to day camp etc. and to work with her at home. We are still waiting on funding for her speech therapy and OT for the summer. Shouldn't be much longer now I assume we should have an answer soon.

Well other then that same old same old here. My life revolves around my kids there is little time for me. So it has gotten to the point where I rarely even blog anymore its sad cause I enjoyed it so much.

All those BE friends I have missed you all and I hope to be visiting BE chat soon ;)

I NEED INSPIRATION!

I have not blogged in over a week now. I said in my other blog that I would and well I haven't so there. I have lost all lack of "want" for blogging.

Also what is the link to Bits website I seem to have misplaced it unless it hasn't been updated in forever then forget it. The last thing I read on there was like 2months ago bout her rant on it being her page and she can do what she wants with it except obviously update it all the time LMFAO

Ok enough being mean even though I feel it running through my veins right now and I so wanna tell most of you ppl out there where to stick it and move on with my life but here I am blogging.
I guess I gotta get back into blogging somehow and I figured ranting bout all the shit that pisses me off was a good place to start.

I hate whinny bitches and assholes (oh we need a word for guys that is just as bad as "cunts" and "bitches" by the way any ideas?)

I hate ppl who are on such a high horse bout not paying attention to the "lurkers" that yet their entire life revolves around the "lurkers" and what their latest gossip is about you. If you really didn't give a shit you wouldn't talk bout them every time you post something on your fuckin blog. Let's face it ppl all those that don't know how to stop paying attention to "lurkers" you give a shit what they say otherwise you wouldn't respond to everything they say whether it be in chat or on a website ranting.

Oh for all those who think I am the "lurker" HAHAHAHAHAHA you are dumber then I thought you were for being in chat all the fuckin time. If I had as much time as all of you to spend freakin bout who is a "lurker" and who isn't then I would find a fuckin hobby more constructive but I don't. My daughter was diagnosed with autism a month ago and I have been way too busy. She started school and outside activities for the past 3months and I don't have time to play your childish games anymore.

I HAVE A LIFE!!! Get over it and move on. Anyone who knows me, knows that I can't lurk for the life of me as I tend to give myself away after the first conversation lol and I just don't have the energy to hide and be sneaky I would rather tell you from ME what I think of you.

Ok now for tater and missy.....tater did you not learn from the last time you were fucked over by a chat chick or do we all have to remind you of what happened with Molly. Not bad mouthing molly otherwise that would be a whole other rant lmafo jk but damn it tater the chick isn't even herself in those pictures. She's stuck all kinds of things up her crotch for ppl on cam who knows how often she's done this. Think bout what you are doing Missy is a slut and always has been.

Thats all for now that I have heard from chat lol just heard it through the grapevines ;)

I know ppl don't like what I have to say and that's fine then STOP READING!!! LMFAO

Again it has been a while since I posted last. It has been insane here, James came back from Camp with work and ended up not working for the last two weeks which has made it stressful. I mean I don't mind him being home but I like money too lol and food.

I do have to say now that he's gone again for another 2-3 weeks I miss him already and he hasn't even been gone for 30min yet. How pathetic is that.

S is doing wonderful with her programs we are still waiting for the finalization of her funding on all her services but she is doing great in school. So great in fact I am not sure how to schedule all her Speech Therapy and her OT in her week since she goes to school 4days a week now.

Oh well I guess I will figure it out. In the meantime I guess I will do what I did while James was gone before, watch movies and indulge myself in blogging again since I have kind of lost the touch for it.

I know I know it's been a while since I last posted but life in the Shaffer house has been insane.

We had to take our S to the city 3hrs away to get her assessed. Her assessment came back that she has autistic disorder. It was the hardest for me to deal with the news. As any parent would know that there is nothing worse then having someone tell you something is wrong with your child.

We have now started all the paperwork for funding through our govt to get her a speech therapist, a special aid for school. The school has been wonderful as they are putting her in full time so she can be around kids and learn to socialize with them.

There are many things that are happening all at once and its exhausting but hubby and I are hopeful that she will be ok and be able to hold a job and live a somewhat normal life. We have read the different parts of autism and the characteristics of it and we are grateful that she doesn't have the extreme behavioral problems or twitching, etc. She basically has the delayed speech as her maine one that we have to get outside help with. Also her social skills are lacking so she is gonna be a busy girl with activities to get her out there socializing and interacting with other kids.

It seems she will start soccer soon (lmfao I am gonna be a soccer mom afterall) and in the fall we will start her on bowling as she loves that and her Opa will coach her.

Everything will be ok we are certain of that as we are working so very hard to do everything in our powers to get her to be ok and develop somewhat normal with her peers.

So that is where I have been in the last little while. Sorry I didn't tell anyone where I was going. Only one person knew where I had disappeared to.

Here is the other two pictures that it wouldn't let me post previous. Enjoy Aunty Rina....we lovee youuuuuuuu!! Smooches

Here are some pictures of S playing with her new toy that she received yesterday from her Aunty Rina. This is the GoGo TV Game.

She absolutely loves it. Thank you Aunty Rina!

A new toy that even mommy can play with the kids that isnt horribly boring lol after 5min.

Another death around me....do I look like the Grimm Reaper? Just curious.

So a friends of my mom's who used to babysit me when I was little her husband died this morning of Cancer. His liver then his heart gave out. He was diagnosed with cancer only a few months ago. I didnt even know he had cancer.

I can't believe it, but you know what they say "everything comes in three's" let's hope this time it is wrong not sure if I could handle another death. I mean I wasnt that close to both these ppl but it still is a schocker to find out someone died that you knew.

My gf of 15yrs said the lady who died earlier that I posted about was the 8th person that had died that she knew from school. I was totally blown away by that as that was my first...well now I have my second.

It is hard for me to be upset over death. Especially if the person was ill as we all knew this person would die eventually. It is inevitable. I mean we are all gonna die it is how the person dies that shocks us the most I think.

If a person was ill with a disease that has no cure or the person is old I find it hard to be sad, it is something that you just have to accept cause 1. you can't change it, what is done is done 2. the person was old or sick and they are in a better place now or reincarnated depending on what you believe.

I tend not to cry a lot over things like known-death. I am not afraid of dying....I am afraid of how I will die and the family hurting afterwards. I think death itself is ok what hurts is all the ppl you will leave behind. Knowing the suffering they will go through and how much you yourself will miss them.

I am sure a lot of ppl might comment on this as it is a little off the wall thinking over death.

Did I mention I have no clue how or what to say when someone tells me someone close to them has died....I have no clue what to say as I have a hard time showing sympathy and empathy for someone that I hardly knew or well...even if I knew them.

The last time I cried over a death was my greatgrandmother she past away 1week before my 15th bday. I was close to this woman I lived in her house till the age of 6. So yes I was close to her and that is the last time I remember showing true emotion, except of course for my children.

I wanted to share with you all some kewl little avaters I got and stuff. If any of these belong to someone that you made please feel free to leave me a comment and I will give credit where it is deserved. I received these from emails and different places on yahoo groups etc.

I received in my inbox a very depressing email.

A young girl I went to school with that was criticized for her smarts and her good looks never really fit in to her class. Our group of friends took her under our wings as she had started the school year late. Her father was a doctor and her family was from Korea.

Two strikes against her besides the fact that she was very pretty and smart as a whip. She knew everything in Science and Biology. In fact I wouldn't' be surprised to find out that she was smarter then the teachers who were teaching those exact classes.

I found out today that this young girl who had her whole life ahead of her...and graduated two years before she was supposed to had passed away only a few days ago. I lost touch with her long ago when I was only 19. She went on to go to University and graduate in microbiology.

She was 25 and was living a full life with her partner Jason. She had her entire life ahead of her...it makes it hard to believe someone two years younger then me has passed away. I do not know how she passed away, if it was from some terrible accident. Am still trying to find that out.

It makes me really look at life and makes me wanna spend every moment living it to the fullest as you never know when it is going to end.

I want to send out a prayer to her family and those she has left behind, and I am sorry I had lost touch with her. We were never close but she was a friend and our valedictorian at our Graduation. She will be missed by many and those that didn't get a chance to know her, you missed a wonderful lady.

Here is my new template. Some of you might have already dropped by and noticed the new background but for the rest let me know what you think.

I didn't create this and the credits to who did is in my sidebar so go stop by and see what she's got. Otherwise I am working on learning how to code my own template but it's harder then you might think lol at first.

I am working on another blog currently to get it up and running thank's to LunaStone who provided me the template.

So let me know what you think and perhaps some suggestions on what I could do differently and hey if you have any links to tutorials etc on ways to help me create my own template and skin let me know.

I wanted to share with you all the tattoos I plan on getting this summer. I have gotten over my fear with my tongue piercing as most of you know and finally did it after 9yrs of wanting to.

Now its my turn to get a tattoo also have wanted to get one for years but it seems whenever I have the money for it I am pregnant lol.

Those will be placed on my shoulder one on each side so I will always have the "Devil" and "Angel" looking over my shoulder so to speak.

I am not sure what my next tattoo will be haven't really decided yet but i figure those would be a great start. I don't wanna go all crazy with tattoos but I do plan on getting a tattoo with my gf of 15yrs going on 16. We will get the same tattoo to celebrate our long lasting friendship, of course we still haven't really agreed on which one to get lol go figure.

She's already got a few, ok a few is an understatement. She has a bunch and her first tattoo I was with her and held her hand. Too bad she wont be with me to get my first tattoo, as she lives two provinces away from me and she won't be able to be here for it.

So this summer I will get up my courage to walk in and get these two tattoos on my shoulder.

Any ideas for my next tattoo are always welcome, link me baby!

So here it is lol I thought this picture kind of suited to what I am going to write about.

I am looking at a house today while hubby is still away, I am getting all the paperwork started to getting preapproved for a mortgage and looking at houses that would suit us best. There are a few things that are absolutely non-negotiable when buying a house:

1. Fenced yard
2. Washer
3. Dryer
4. Fridge
5. Stove
6. Preferably a dishwasher not a must but gawd it wouldn't hurt lol
7. Nice decent location
8. Not a crack shack
9. 3 Bedrooms

So those are some of the few things I am looking at when buying a house. Again, except for #6 the remainder is non-negotiable as I have two small children and need a fenced yard. I think getting a house with all appliances already in the house is perfect less money I have to dish out once we move in.

Nothing worse then buying a house then having to go down to the LaundryMat to do your freakin' laundry. So I am going in about an hour to check this one place out and we will go from there.

I have a Bank appt on Thursday to get the preapproval of a mortgage going so we know how much the bank will even give us lol. Would be good if they gave us what we need to buy a decent house, as the houses here have gone from decent price to outrageous for some.

Well I will update you all later. Love and kisses!

PS. Psst Wish me luck *giggles*.

Ok here's the second part to the rant earlier.

I have to say I have been called many things in my life but what hurt the most being called something that I know I am not. If someone calls me a "bitch" that's fine cause I can be.

To call me a "looney", "psycho", "just wrong", those are one of the few things that I am not, I have to admit after being called these horrible things from my husband's sister I felt like showing her just how "psycho" I could be. I had evil thoughts of flying down to where she lived for a day, slice her throat, fly back like nothing happened. I have enough ppl here that would watch my kids for the day and cover my ass at the same time.

I figured that this would require too much energy and time away from my kids that she really isn't worth it, but the thought definitely was there I had it all planned out.

Now my husband called her from work and cussed her out etc and now she thinks she can apologize for this grievous act and everything will be fine.

Well I got news for you lady.....IT WILL NEVER BE OK!!!

So here I sit wondering what will happen in the next 6 months that will change things back to the way it was and how in the world I will ever go there and spend time with them. Honestly I don't want their filthy fingers holding my children. I think I would go off and cut their hands off if they touch my children.

So there it is all out in the open....horrible ppl can say horrible things, and us nice people are expected to just bend over and take it from behind and say thank you without a peep.

Ok here's another rant ....regarding mother's-in-law....do I really need to say more.

Yes I think I do as I have well I don't wanna be mean but she's not the greatest person in the world. If I didn't have to be civil to her I wouldn't associate myself with her at all. I mean she doesn't call unless my husband calls her first to tell her to call him back (she has free long distance), she doesn't send cards or presents for the grandkids, she whines all the time and she honestly I don't think she gives two shits bout her kids.

I mean I have never liked her a whole lot but this past week confirmed the reason why. I won't go into details at is a private matter but OMFG let me tell you just how mad I am, I could spit nails.

The woman had the nerve to call my house and scream at my husband over the phone like he was a 5yr old. I was pissed, 1. No one yells at my husband but me that is my right as I am married to him 2. The reason she yelled at him was uncalled for

His sisters have a terrible habit of saying I have said shit about them or his mom while hubby was on the phone with them...and the stuff they say I have said are absolutely ridiculous as for example anyone who knows me knows I would never use the phrase "suck my crotch" lol if anything I would say "suck my cock". Now all my friends even My family know that, but supposedly I said that about his mom how she could "suck my crotch" lmfao

Well if I would cuss her out I wouldn't choose to tell her to "suck my crotch" my choice of words would be 1. A little bit more mature 2. I would tell her to "suck my cock" if anything 3. Do I really wanna waste my time on a person who lives in her own little world?

Anyways hubby told her off and hopefully it's the last we hear of her she's nothing but trouble, sorry to say but his whole family is. They have done nothing for us since we got together but start fights between us. It is quite pathetic actually.

Well I could go into more detail but the whole situation sickens me and am tired of thinking about it.

TONGUE RING

Ok here's a bad picture of my new 1 day old tongue piercing. Am very proud as I walked out feeling so jazzed bout the whole thing that I almost jumped for joy. Of course if you would know what I went through before that tryin to not cry every time I thought of how much it might hurt. LOL

Ok so I sat down in the chair shaking in my boots (literally) and listening to the lady who was doing it (ok I wasn't really paying attention I admit it) while she was getting ready all I could think of was "what the fuck am I doing here?" lol

So she set up and got my tongue "ready" and tried not to look at the needled (which I can honestly say I DIDN'T). Ok so she tells me to take a deep breath.....and release it slowly as I did that she pushed the needle through and capped the top then put the barbell through....omfg I was fine I didn't pass out....puke....cry....or DROOL!!!

I stepped off the thing excited and feeling like I wanted to hug her but I was afraid of hurting her as I was so fuckin' happy. Anyways my tongue didn't swell up a bit till today when I woke up...but the swelling has gone down for the most part.

Wednesday I go and get my barbell changed to a smaller one as this one is a bit too big (of course) and I am having a hard time chewing lol.

Well I have to say this was a great experience considering I have wanted to get this done for almost 10yrs lol. How sad is that and I had to go by myself, no one to hold my hand...no one to cheer me on nothing...just me :D

Oh well that's it for now...hubby is home for anther 3 days and then he's gone again for 2-4 weeks.

Comments pleaseeeeeee tell me what you think!!

Aight so this post has no title...just a warning...I will be ranting, cursing, swearing and perhaps even wondering why God would let this happen. So unless any of the above offends you keep reading.

So I woke up late today to take S to school, to be exact an hour late so I raced up got ready got the kids ready, ran out to start the van in order to have it warm when we got in. When I got outside I noticed about 10feet of snow (not very good at measurements but that is how it feels out there) and I proceeded to clean off the van...the drive side mostly as that was the direction the wind was coming from. As I came around the van (around the back) I noticed that there was a large break in my back window. I was as you can imagine upset.

So I turned off the van gave up trying to make anything usefull of this day and called the school to let them know that my windshield was busted and I wouldn't be taking the kids anywhere. I would see them again Monday.

Of course I then proceeded to cry as this was very upsetting, how could this be possibly happening. I screamed under my breath "FUCK!!!" and called my husband who of course I couldn't get a hold of as he was at work (sort of, will explain in a minute), then I called my dad as my father would know what to do in a situation like this.

He told me to call the Glass company that does windshields and get an estimate done. I figured it would be $600 but after getting off the phone with the guy he quoted me $377. THANK GOD for that lol at least one thing was gonna go right.

Ok so here comes the next part of my exciting last 24hrs.

So last night I was sitting here waiting for my husband to call me to let me know he's home from work and see how the kids are etc. Well when I hadn't heard from him by 10pm I started to get worried he would usually call me once he got done work and was on his way home (an hour away). Well I called his coworkers room and K answered, I asked him where my husband was and he said "oh he's in the Hospital" my heart skipped a beat...."Excuse me WHAT!"

Ya that's where the convo got interesting. Turns out yesterday around 7pm he had been taken to the Hospital in order to get his back checked as it was hurting pretty badly and company policy is to take the person to the H. Anyways after a few hours there he was told it was a pulled muscle. Weeeeeeeeee GREAT so he will be out of work now for about a week and I have to pay for a windshield out of a one week paycheck on top of our regular bills.

Oh here's the clincher lol you're gonna love this part. I asked the Glass guys what time I could bring it in (remember I have no back windshield) and they said the part would be in tomorrow and I could bring the van in at 3pm. Uhm What the fuck am I supposed to do in the meantime leave it out there to get stolen.....oh boy what a day and when I tried guntaping plastic to the van it wouldn't stick because of course, IT'S FROZEN!!!!

So my day has gone from sleeping in = bad to perhaps not having a van when I wake up in the morning to take it in to get it fixed = worse.

So I refuse to leave my house as well 1. I have no vehicle and there is wayyyy too much snow out there. 2. My luck hasn't gotten any better yet today so I refuse to let badluck get the best of me and leave the house.

So I am not sure how anyone can say anything in my comments section to make me feel better but I doubt it and oh ya...don't tell me your grandparents just died etc as this would 1. honestly not surprise me 2. They were old like you didn't see that coming

The above is a whole other rant lol that I could get into and it would surely surprise some people that I would even think this way. Besides this is about me so if you're gonna whine about your day...please don't my day has been bad enough without having to listen to other people try to out-badluck me.

Sorry for being so rude but I have had enough today...not sure how much more I can take before I really lose it on a person and hurt their feelings (which again honestly wouldn't bother me today lmfao).

EBAY!!!

Ok so I haven't been very active on my blog these past few days as I have been spending most of my time living on ebay. Go figure I have won lots of great items I have to say for dirt cheap lol.

I have to say it can get out of hand lol speaking from personal experiences. So I will be back again for the next week till next payday lmfao.

Ok if you have any great stories you wanna share with me or not so great regarding your experiences on ebay go for it would love to hear that I am not the only addicted person on this planet.

It's been a little while since I last posted so perhaps I should keep everyone updated. Nothing much has happened. LOL go figure right you start reading expecting some amazing news of why this person hasn't done a new blog in a few days and they got NOTHING!

Well tomorrow is a big day am nervous, excited and scared all at the same time....it's S's first day at Kindergarten arghhhhhhhhh

I have already packed her lunch and it's waiting for her in the fridge for tomorrow morning. I also have to remember to set my alarm as the last time I was up at 7am for a good reason I was getting paid for it and I had to get ready for work...and let's just say its been a while.

So I will get up at 7am have a shower then get the kids up and dressed, breakfast done and out the door to school we go. It's my little baby's first day and I just know I will blubber like a little baby.

She's my baby, ok well she's almost 4 and it's time to cut the umbilical cord I know and I still have little J in the house to keep me busy as he is a handful let me tell you lol. This is my little girl going off to school. I have always dreaded this day from the day I gave birth to her as I have pretty much always been home with her or she was at a friends house with her little boy while I was at work so I wasn't really worried, but now it's SCHOOL.

Well as you can see I have great anxiety over this matter as I am not sure how she is gonna react it could go either way. She will either not wanna leave and go inside with the other kids (which of course will make me cry as I will feel like I have to abandon her somewhere she don't wanna go), or the other option is she will forget I even exist and run off to be with the other kids and I will be left standing there with a dumb look on my face thinking "wow, no kiss bye no hug she's just gone". Either way I will cry hysterically lol.

Well that's all I have for now, oh ya hubby is scheduled to come home sometime between the 15th of March and the end of March. So I will have to also pack my digital camera to take pictures of my little girl at her first day at school. *CRIES*

Ok ok I am fine I swear, promise I will live and I will get sleep tonight no matter what (gives a look of bullshit), I won't sleep a wink I can tell you that much. LOL

Well leave me comments please I could use the support of other parents out there with their first day at school experiences. I am sure I will be back tomorrow night flogging bout her first day at school and what happened, besides the fact of me crying hysterically all the way home.

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This was given to me by a good friend regarding our months and our personalities. Well I have to say as you can read below it speaks true for me almost completely.

Here is more of me sharing with you about me.

October

Loves to chat - uhm how true ask rina lol

Loves those who love him/her - yep only hate those that hate me first

Loves to take things at the centre

Attractive and suave - I like to think so and I don't really care who begs to differ lol

Inner and physical beauty - I have a great personality till you rub me the wrong way

Does not lie or pretend - what good does it to...eventually the liar gets caught, no point

Symapthetic - ok that one I have to differ with as I hate sympathy lol unless it is dully needed

Treats friends importantly - those that are true friends deserve it

Always making friends - unless it's LS1 lol

Easily hurt but recovers easily - yep no point crying over spilt milk "suck it up princess"

Daydreamer - yep true

Very opinionated - gee like ya'll didn't know that already lol

Does not care what others think - hence why Bit's forum don't bother me one bit :D

Emotional - I can be depending on situation

Decisive - yep

Strong clairvoyance - wow didn't expect that to be mentioned : ask hubby and rina bout that

Loves to travel, the arts and literature - gawd do I ever

Soft-spoken, loving and caring Romantic - ya I do love the mushy crap

Touchy and easily jealous Concerned - yep : I get horribly jealous

Loves outdoors - I used to go camping, haven't been since I had kids will have to go again soon

Just and Fair - well I am a Libra ffs

Spend thrift and easily influenced - gawd I love to shop hence why I am an ebay addict

Easily lose confidence - yep something has to work the first time otherwise "hammer time"

Loves children - I do, well sometimes lol jk I used to work in a daycare with 20 kids a day it was insane lol

This is a story written for another contest (I know ppl just bare with me would ya this is what I got take it or leave it lol) mystickal Incense I hope you all enjoy this and if you don't...too bad it's posted till I post again.

It was a cold rainy day and Sarah was walking down the street looking in closed store shops wondering where her life was going. It was definitely not as she had planned at her young age of 27 she had planned to be married by 25 and have had started a family by now. Yet she was living in a one bedroom apartment alone (and it wasn't even that nice of an apartment) she had a few friend's from work other then that she had no one else.

She walked past a small Diner that had barely any lights on it was so dark and gloomy you almost could mistake it for being Closed. There was a shape sitting in a booth starring outside. She couldn't make out who it was but she noticed he was looking right at her. As soon as she realized it she quickly looked away, when out of the corner of her eye she seen this shape get up and walk over to the door. She now started to get nervous she was a young female late at night out on the street...what if this guy was a murderer or rapist. She began to walk, fast when she heard a voice call out to her "Sarah?".

She stopped but did not turn around as she couldn't figure out who this person was...she thought bout his voice if she recognized it, nothing.

"Sarah!" He yelled louder.

She turned and realized who this person was with the dark hair standing a good 6' in height wearing a long coat drenched with rain.

"John? Oh my I haven't seen you in years what have you been up to? What brings you to this small city?"

She then realized that she had asked way too many questions, she began to giggle uncontrollably.

"I am so sorry for bombarding you, you just surprised me is all."

"It's ok Sarah I am actually glad to see you. I have been thinking a lot about you lately."

"You have?"

She said surprised, since the last time they saw each other they were standing at the Alter her in a beautiful flowing wedding gown with real pearls stitched threw it and a vail to die for. Then there was John dressed in a suit that made his deep blue eyes stand out and his dark hair was lightly tussled as he was nervous. Then she remembered what happened just as they were to start their vows....she looked into those deep eyes and said in the most honest way possible that she couldn't get married this day.

That was basically the last she had seen of him, their relationship afterwards had never been the same again, he couldn't understand why she didn't go through with it if she loved him as he had no doubt in his mind he loved her otherwise he wouldn't have proposed.

"How have you been Sarah? I have missed you."

She looked at him and couldn't tell him that she hadn't been doing anything important and every night she cried herself to sleep for making the biggest mistake of her life, letting this man go and not stopping him no matter how many chances he had given her to explain what was going on.

"You know, this and that. I started a new job at the newspaper in town. Just an editor but I am having fun."

"That's good Sarah I am happy for you."

He hadn't been happy since the day he had moved out of their place they had built together, the memories they had made and the place he had hoped they would raise their children in. He missed holding her but she had broken his heart the day she told him at the Alter she couldn't marry him without explanation. He was uncertain whether he could do that again.

"Sarah I think we need to talk, in fact I have been trying to figure out how to get a hold of you and talk to you about that day."

"I know John, I have been thinking that as well, I just don't know what to tell you or how to explain something I don't even understand."

He took her by the arm and led her inside the Diner where it was dry and warm. She sat down at the booth he had been sitting at when he stepped over to the gentlemen behind the counter and ordered them both coffee's, he didn't have to ask how she liked it as he still remember even after all this time how she took her coffee. He came back to the table and sat down across from her, just starring at her wondering what had happened between them.

"John..."

"Sarah, please let me go first there are some things I have been wanting to tell you for a very long time and have not been practicing on how to say them and what words to use."

"Sarah." He took her hands in his and he continued.

"I have loved you since the day I laid eyes on you at college that first semester or Journalism class. I knew that moment when you walked in all uncertain and holding your books tight that I would love you forever no matter what would happen between us. That still holds true no matter what happened that day in church I will never stop loving you. Now I wanna explain to you why I left."

"John please." She had tears flowing down her cheeks holding his hand she remembered that day oh so well it almost pained her to go back to that moment.

"John please let me explain as I am the one that started all this that day not you. You did the right thing by leaving me as neither one of us was the same again afterwards. I do love you, John that is the first thing I want to say. I have never stopped loving you and I wanted nothing more then to be your wife, but I realized something that day standing at the Alter, all of our family's there and friends the priest. I realized that I am not worthy of such a wonderful man, there are things about me John that you don't know, in fact no one knows."

"Sarah, whatever it is, you know I will stand beside you no matter what. You are the perfect one for me always have been, no matter what you think you did or did wrong I am sure it's nothing."

"John, no you don't understand I have done something horrible that I don't think you will ever see me the same way again."

"What is it Sarah, please your breaking my heart by not telling me."

She took a deep breath and just jumped head first.

"John, when I was 15 I gave birth to a little girl. I gave her up for adoption as it was wrong for a young girl of that age to have a child and to raise it. No man would want me if I had a child. Well that day I realized when we were standing at that Alter that I could not get married with this secret hanging over our lives. I always had dreamed that someday I could find my little girl and have her be my Maid of honor at my Wedding. She was tore out of my hands in the hospital. I never got to say goodbye."

"Oh Sarah." He came around the booth and took her in his arms. He just held her and weeped with her.

"Sarah, I love you and we can get through this together, you are never alone as long as I am in your heart."

"John, I feel so horrible for making you feel the way you have, pushing you away, hurting you."

He holds her closer and gently brushing her hair back. He pulls up her chin so her mouth aligns with his. He looks deep into her eyes to show her how much he loves her and will never leave her again no matter how hard she pushes him. He kisses her gently, the taste of tears against his lips knowing now that everything will be fine from now on.

She has craved his touch his kiss for so long and there it was, the acceptance of her secret and her shame finally she felt free to love once again openly and never again would she be afraid of what the uncertainty would hold.

OBSESSION WITH PORN?

Here is a question for all you out there: what is the obsession with porn. I mean if you think about it logically all these women who are on there are someone's daughter. Now would you want your daughter on there doing what these women do?

Personally I don't see what the great fascination is with it. I mean I have a little girl and I could not imagine finding out 20yrs down the road that she is doing porn and selling herself in this way. I feel for all those parents out there that have their daughters doing this. Of course for men to be in porn movies it is a completely different thing (double standards what a surprise). For men it is "Wow you are awesome dude, you get to sleep with woman and be in movies and get paid". For woman it is much different.

We look at woman in porn movies as "sluts", "whores", selling their bodies for money. On one hand it is their bodies and they can do what they want with it and it is their own lives they are putting at risk of getting diseases etc. On the other hand, what is the great obsession with men and watching these movies?

I have asked several men regarding this matter (yes I have gotten strange looks and strange debates) and the answer is always the same, "its something else to look at".

Now for a single male to watch porn I can understand why you do it, but for married men why? Explain this to me as I just don't understand it. You have a woman there that you love and perhaps has had a few kids doesn't quite look the way she did before hand with a few stretchmarks etc. This can be quite degrading for this woman as she may feel less attractive as you are busy watching porn and these woman are skinny, most with big tits and will do some impossible things that the average female wouldn't do.

Now some woman try hard to please their husbands but yet these men are drawn to porn like fly to shit. I don't comprehend this matter.

If anyone has any ideas why this may be, as currently all I seem to get is the same answer and it does not satisfy my curiosity of this matter. If I get a proper answer out of a male I might stop asking my male friends this question.

QUIZZZZZ

1) Single or Taken: Taken
2) Your Age: 27
3) Sign: Libra
4) Siblings: 1 brother
5) Hair color: medium brown
6) Eye color: Blue
7) Shoe size: 8
8) Full name as stated on birth certificate: Kathrin Daniela

R e l a t i o n s h i p s:
1. Who is your best friend(s)?: Melanie and Rina
2. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: married

S t u f f:
1. Where is your favorite place to shop: uhm without much of a choice...wal mart lol only decent place in town
2. Do you have any piercings?:Yes

S p e c i f i c s:
1. Have you ever done drugs?: Yep
2. What kind of shampoo do you use?: Whatever is in my bathroom
3. What are you most scared of?: Spiders
5. Who is the last person that called you?: Hubby
6. Where do you want to get married?: Well if I had to do it over again....who am I kidding I dont wanna get married again...just wanna have a Honeymoon lol
7. How many buddies are online right now?: 2
8. What would you change about yourself?: Outside or inside hmmm well outside I would look like I did when I was 21 (I was hot) and on the inside more patience

H a v e Y o u E v e r:
1. Given anyone a bath?: Yes uhm remember I have kids
2. Smoked?: Yes

3. Bungee jumped?: No
4. Made yourself throw up?: no
5. Skinny dipped?:No

6: Ever been in love?:Yes
7. Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes
8. Pictured your crush naked?: Uhm does my husband have to read this (YES I have pictured him naked but not telling who he is :O maybe its a she)
9. Actually seen your crush naked?: YES
10. Cried when someone died?: Yes
11. Fallen for your best friend?: Yes
12. Been rejected?: Yes but uhm he aint around to tell about it *maniacal laugh*
13. Rejected someone?: Ya I mean otherwise I wouldn't be with my hubby
14. Used someone?: maybe
15. Done something you regret?: Regret is for the weak of heart...and let's face it regretting isn't gonna change what has happened

C u r r e n t:
-Clothes: comfy pants and tshirt
-Hair: ponytail
-Book you're reading: The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell & Dustin Thomason
-In cd player: Mixed CD
-In dvd player: Pick a Disney movie its probably in there :

L a s t P e r s o n:
-You touched: My son-Hugged: Daughter
-You imed: Rina

A r e Y o u:-Understanding: Yeah I think so-Open-minded: I think so
-Arrogant: No
-Insecure: At times
-Random: Sometimes
-Hungry: No
-Smart: yep
-Moody: YES
-Hard working: I have two kids one has a learning disability and the other is like his father nuff said
-Organized: You bet
-Difficult: oh yes, I can be
-Bored easily: yes
-Obsessed:yes very much so

R a n d o m:
-In the morning I am: tired
-All I need is: family aka hubby and kids
-I dream about: Hubby coming home early

O p p o s i t e S e x:
-What do you notice first: hair
-Last person you danced with: kids we danced to shrek
-Who do you have a crush on: Hubby
-Who has a crush on you: Hubby

D o Y o u E v e r:
-Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to come on?:no I just wait for my hubby to call me soI sit by the phone which happens to be by the computer lol

-Wish you were younger: No
-Cried because someone said something to you?: yes

N u m b e r:
Of times I have had my heart broken:3x
Of hearts I have broken:don't know didn't stick around long enough to find out lol
Of continents I have lived in: 2
Of cds I own: oh 50 or so
Of scars on my body: chicken pox a few other then that not really

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s:
1. Do you like fillings these out?: no too many questions
2. Gold or silver: silver (despite me wearing a gold diamond and my wedding band that is gold lol
3. What was the last film you saw at the movies?: Movies what are those...big screen no Disney huh unheard of lol

Hope you enjoy this

I am missing my husband. Some of you might remember how I was feeling a little down for the fact that he was away till Spring. Well good news happened and he came home for 6 days which is why I was A.W.O.L and didn't write in my blog.

So my husband (pictured above) came home on Sunday night and he left last night again but this time he is gone for 2 more months. It had only been a month since I last seen him now I have to go twice as long without seeing him.

I didn't want him to leave yesterday when he walked out the door with all his gear, it was one of the hardest things I have had to do.

The first time he left it was easier in a way as we didn't know he was going so nothing was different, he went out to the truck and he was told to pack a bag so he came in and started packing I was so busy running around making sure he had everything I didn't really think about the fact that it could be months before I see him again. Well it sunk in afterwards but it was easier. This time we had the entire time he was here to prepare for it again, doing his laundry packing his bag etc. It was one of the saddest and happiest weeks of my life.

All I can say it that these next two months are gonna be the longest in my life.

On a brighter side....my daughter S is going to Kindergarten this year, like in two weeks. So she has a learning disability with her speech (basically she doesn't wanna talk or pronounce words) so she is funded by the gov't in getting an Aid for school. So Hubby and I while he was here made an appt with the person responsible for this Aid program and she said that it would be best for S to start Kindergarten instead of preschool as the Aid and funding is better and she would be in with kids her own age.

We are thrilled but again Hubby will miss her first day so lots of pics will be taken.

I wanted to write something about these two things I have posted above here but what more can I say other then...it is true.

Let me know your thoughts on these, would love to hear them.

Why is it that our little "angels" are not truly angels as they may appear? My daughter pictured above looks like the perfect little girl, innocent smile, bright blue eyes, yet she has a way to make me wanna tear our my hair.

I am not sure why she has this way perhaps it is simply because she knows how to push all my buttons (she is my daughter after all), or perhaps it is because I see myself in her and it reminds me that perhaps my parent's were right. LOL

Ok so I have this problem, well I have many problems lol but one problem at a time. So my daughter is now spitting....yes you heard me SPITTING!

She spits everywhere and I have to blame the movie Shrek it all started with the dragon breathing fire, she imitated that and next thing you knew spit came flying out of her mouth, "wow that's pretty neat let's see what happens if I continue to do this....wow more spit". The rest is history.

Now I have tried time-outs, I have tried to put her in her room, I have even given her a light swat on the mouth when she spits...NOTHING has worked.

So I try to deal with it as best as I can, without losing too much hair and ending up bald before my husband comes home from work.

Any advice is appreciated as I have noticed a bald spot on my head. LOL

Aight so today is much better I watched Shall We Dance? and I had a very good cry over it as I feel I needed.

So today I woke up took the kids for a walk as it was +2 out and sunny and warm it was wonderful by the time we left our two feet of snow was almost all melted away. So we went for a walk came home had lunch...then I did my workout it was great. I have been neglecting doing my workout for a couple of days now cause I was feeling like shit but I realize I was feeling this way cause I wasn't doing them, DUH@me.

I have lost 2inches already in two weeks (ok the first week I fell off the wagon a few times on my lifestyle change) but I have been eating right I mean 1200 Calories a day only and the right stuff not gorging food whenever I can lol.

I feel wonderful I wanna look hot for my husband and for me when he returns home so I have a couple more months, gotta step it up. I realize that without my Protein Shake and my workout I feel terrible all day, my body is so used to this now that I better keep it up.

Dieting is bad but you have to make a lifestyle change. I mean you gotta eat right all the time cause a quick fix diet only lasts so long and you are more likely to gain the weight back. Find a program that helps you and teaches you to eat right that's the key.

I plan on looking like that chick in the picture up there (laughs hysterically) someday but for now I wanna be healthy and fit is all. So wish me luck, and by the way the new lifestyle I am on I don't crave junk food and I started this during my "visitor" and usually I can't get enough chocolate and crap in my face cause I crave it.

This is how I feel today. Sad, lonely and missing the love of my life. He's so far away that he can't get a signal on his cell phone so he can only call when he goes into town a million miles away (ok small exaggeration) and that is only every few days.

So I await his phone call impatiently, waiting to speak to him, hear his voice telling me how much he misses me and loves me. *SIGH*

This is our first time apart since we met 3.5yrs ago and it's absolutely tearing a whole inside of me. I can't wait till he gets home again and then won't leave again for another year till next winter, thank God.

So until then I spend my time with my kids, eating healthier and working out and sitting on the pc killing time doing whatever it is I do on here (someday's I even wonder how I manage to kill so much time on here doing absolutely nothing).

I have been doing some reading which I haven't had much time when hubby is home, we are always either watching something or going places. So it's kinda nice to have so much time to spend doing things that so many of us women forget to do once we have a family, take care of ourselves.

Well if you have any encouraging words for me please feel free to comment as I need to be cheered up, feeling a little depressed today. Thank and love to all!

Spooky Girl Contest

This is a contest put on by : http://mystickalincense.com/blog/?p=79

"But mama" the little girl says in an English accent. "Why can't we go to see Grandpa?"

Her mother replies with tears in her eyes, "Emily sweetheart, remember what we talked about last night, Grandpa is up with God now. He's watching over us everyday."

"Mama, can I go see Grandpa where he is?" The small girl trying so hard to understand why she can not see her Grandfather any longer and why he left without saying Goodbye. She clutches her doll that her Grandfather had given her on her 5th birthday with some words of wisdom, "My little Granddaughter always remember, in that doll is your childhood and never be afraid of being a child and living life to the fullest no matter what happens."

Little Emily remembered every word her Grandpa had told her, he was the only father figure in her life and she knew she had a greater love for him then anyone else in this world and being told she could never see him again or talk to him broke her heart. How much she would miss his strong arms cradling her and singing her lullabye's in his rough deep voice. She cherished the days where her mother had to leave for work as then it would just be Grandpa and her. Now, those day's were gone. She only had her mother left to love her and tell her she was beautiful.

"Emily, always remember no matter where I am I will always love you and cherish you, you are my pride and joy." She heard her Grandfather say, tears welled up in her eyes and she held on to her doll as tight as she could swearing never to forget her Grandfather's words to her the day she received her doll.

Flirting Online: How Far Is Too Far

To start this off with I have to show you this website I found. I almost fell over laughing. http://www.onlinedatingschool.com/

Ok so there is harmless flirting and complete shameless flirting where there are other intentions involved other then either being friendly or playing some harmless game to make yourself feel better.

We all have those days where nothing makes us fell much better then a little harmless flirting with someone that says all the right things at the right time. You walk away with your head a little higher (no pun intended), your spirit feels better and you got a certain childlike glow about your face.

Now where this turns into much worse is when you keep going back for more, and you take it further as in making plans to be together or as far as even meeting in secret. Now if you are cybering in someone's box or in email etc that is again GONE TOO FAR!

Now of course if either one of you is single then by all means go for it have a great time with it. If of course you are not...shame on you for letting this friendly flirting go to the next level of shameless flirting and cybering.

This under anyone's category would fall under cheating if you are not single. If you lie about being single (again lying online is a whole other topic) that is still cheating and it is disrespectful to the other party involved as they might not want to be a tramp or hussy, homewrecker etc.

I think a little friendly flirting that you know and the other party know will never go further plus I think you are in fact using the other person to make yourself feel better if you wake up in the morning feeling like shit.

Now I know I will probably get a crap load of shit flying my way from this post and I am ok with that, I never ask ppl to agree with me just hear what I have to say and leave it at that. The world is made with disagreements I am not afraid. Give me your best shot.

CHEATING MEN!

It was brought to my attention through a comment made on my last post from Alice that I had obviously not explored so here I am today exploring that.

The Hussy's and tramps aren't the only one's to blame for cheating, and I totally agree with that the men are just as much at fault, but let's face reality most men couldn't keep their dicks in their pants when they are out with the boy's and in a bad situation where these Hussy's and tramps hang out.

I believe a lot of men recognize the danger areas and stay away from them on purpose as they do not want to be in a bad situation and being a male let themselves not think with the right anatomy.

I know from personal experience that my own husband would not cheat on me as he has told me several times that if you put yourself in a bad situation only bad things will come from it. That is why he stays away from bar's (considering he doesn't drink much), he doesn't go to strip clubs as well DUH! That is your ultimate bad situation, as well as he always tells women he's married as he always has his wedding ring on and is very proud of having his children and I in his life. He tells everyone about us. I literally mean EVERYONE! LOL

If you ever ask a man why he cheated it is simply because he felt more connected to the other person whether he means sexually (no pun intended), or emotionally (was someone that would listen to him). Sometimes in a relationship we forget to listen to our partner so that person whether it be a female or male in the relationship goes off to find that missing piece in their relationship. Now of course if you do not recognize this and do something constructive about it you will fall into the destructive, which could mean doing something that later on you may regret.

Having said the above always think before you act, yes that even goes for men out there that like to forget they have a brain that rides above their waist.

In part I would like to also say that when a person cheats there is always an underlying reason, it was probably not because he wanted to have sex with someone new. It goes much deeper then that. A relationship is give and take and if your always giving or taking then that is not much of a relationship as a relationship is not 50%/50% it is in fact 100%/100% you both have to give and take as much as you can in order to live a balanced life.

So now that I think I have covered all I can without going on forever I would like to say thank you to all those who had great comments on my previous post. Keep them coming folks I always love to read what others have to say in regards to my posts and you never know I might just make a whole blog regarding that. LOL

Ciao ppl and remember your give and take has to be balanced as life is all about balance or karma will kick your ass *giggles*

HUSSY'S AND TRAMPS

Here is a post that most women can relate to. What is it with single women and some married women who just can't accept the fact that a married man is in fact MARRIED!

You see these single women going after married men. Now I understand that men have little or no willpower when confronted with a beautiful charming single young woman. Here is my beef with all this. Do you really want to be known as a homewrecking bitch?

I understand that a married man is very attractive to a single female considering that obviously he's got qualities that women are looking for as he is married. Ok I know I am being very general as some married men are asshole's even though they are in fact married, but that is besides the point. I am looking at the good married men that women as soon as they see that wedding band have to go after. I mean get real ladies do you really know what they wife is capable of?

I personally would probably go off the deep end if I found any female hitting on my man. I believe I have that right to go after her and potentially hurt her. I mean I am by nature a very protective person over what is legally mine. By marriage my husband is legally mine. We have agreed to go with each other and no one else.

It just really ticks me off when I hear about single women going after married men as if there aren't enough available men to go around why do you have to hit on mine?

People's Opinion's, Do They Really Matter?

Do people's opinion really matter? No I don't think it does matter what other ppl think. Seriously if what you feel is right to do who is to say if that is right for you? Not a single person in this world other then you can say whether this is destructive or not.

Who are those ppl who feel the need to stick their nose into anything and everything you are doing and have to give their two cents? I believe they are selfish ppl who only want what is not gonna harm them in some ridiculous way.

For example: My friend's boyfriend that she has never met and has talked to online now for over a year has proposed to her. Now personally knowing this person I believe she would not do anything without thinking it through thoroughly. I know her intentions for doing this and when she asked her "friends" their reaction was less then nice.

When she told me my first thought was...and what's the problem? LOL then she told me that her "friends" cussed her out for wanting to get married to this gentleman that she felt was so right for her. Well she was told all kinds of horrible things and felt very invalidated for this. I don't blame her really. I mean WHO THE HELL ARE YOU FOR TELLING HER SHE'S BEING DESTRUCTIVE etc. Your nobody that's who.

I reassured her that if she had no doubt in her mind about this then there is no one in this world that can tell her what to do or what not to do only herself can make that decision.

Needless to say I think those of you who think giving your two cents about anything and everything just to make yourself feel better in this small world or are afraid that you might lose this person, that she will be too busy with her HAPPY new life to talk to you I say: SUCK IT UP PRINCESS AND GET OVER IT!

If you only have your own best interest in mind when telling a person your opinion and doing so in the wrong way then you don't deserve to say anything. Keep your mouth shut and stand beside your friend no matter what she decides even if in the end it doesn't work out cause that's what friends do.

The Every Day Happenings

Ok today I have no show stopping topics to discuss, as well as I have no new news to share with you all. In fact I have nothing much to say at all which is kind of sad. I found out last night that my husband that is working for an Oilfield Company (service oilwells in Alberta) won't be back home until First Break aka when the ground is unthawed. *cries* so my husband won't return for a few months and honestly I have to tell you all that he's only been gone for a week and I wish he was coming back...yet I know he's not yet. He calls everynight when he's done work which means most days I am already in bed by the time he's done work...great paychecks not so great cause he's doing most days 10-13hr days.

Of course at this rate we will be buying a house by spring time which is good for us. So I guess overall it's good for the family overall. Well as you can all read this blog is just bout my everyday life, which consists of getting up with my two kids, breakfast, playtime, lunch, playtime, naptime, suppertime, story time, and finally bedtime. Not very exciting.

So there you have. Thank you bloggers for being my support while my husband is away as without being able to come on here and read all what ppl have to say and writing about what is happening in my life and what I think I might just go insane. BIG HUG TO ALL OF YOU!!!!

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ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA

I believe in schools dress codes are better for children. They learn that clothe does not make the person it is what their personality is like. I mean look at our society today, it is all about image and how we dress.

For girl's it's even worse. It is about nails, makeup, hair, and of course lets not forget the over flaunted fact of size that our society seems to love to harp on. God forbid that a young women is over the size of 6, (and how many of us after having children can say we have that without working out butt's off, literally) she is shunted out of the public eye as being overweight, not pretty enough. I mean come on give me a break what are we teaching out children that being unhealthy skinny (as bulimia, anorexia sets in) is ok. As a society should we accept the fact that eating a good meal and throwing up afterwards is ok. I DON'T THINK SO!

Yes I know I am getting into a serious topic here but this has to be talked about as our society is based on this. I wanted to go over first the difference of anorexia and bulimia.

First anorexia nervosa is chatergorized by excessive dieting. This is motivated on the strong desire to be thin and a fear of becoming obese. Anorexics consider themselves fat no matter what their actual weight is. Even when becoming close to death anorexics will show you where on their body they are still fat and need to loose weight. In order to avoid gaining weight they will go to any attempts to avoid food or calories in order not to gain weight. An estimate 10 to 20% will result in death because of this.

Bulimia nervosa is a cycle of binge eating and then purging their food in order to rid their bodies of the calories. A binge can range from 1000 to 10000 calories and for some binging is simply a cookie. Purging methods usually involve vomiting or laxactive abuse. Other forms of purging can involve excessive exercising, fasting, use of diuretics, diet pills, enemas.

Let us not forget our friendly neighbor of both of these (notice the sarcasm) Compulsive Overeating. This is chatergorized by uncontrollable eating and consequently weight gain. Compulsive eaters use food in order to cope with stress, emotional conflict, and daily problems. Compulsive overeaters usually recognize that their eating habits are not normal and they do have a problem.

This has been going on for years now but it seems to be getting much worse as it is hitting our younger and younger generations. Teens are feeling the stress of wanting to be thin and believe boys will like them better if they are thinner. Therefore doing whatever is necessary to get this way. Here is what one teens had said regarding anorexia.

"When you're anorexic you think you're pretty cool 'cos you think you've got lots of self-control and willpower. And everyone else is weak.....you think you're a cut above the rest...because you're skinnier then everyone else." -Kyle

This blows my mind. How can this be cool and something you want to do. The more we see these movies and videos with skinny girls on their prancing around and the guys all over them this is the message we are sending to our children. This is only gonna get worse in our society today as there is no stopping the music company's and fashion shows to show us skinnier and skinnier women trying to tell us that this is how we are supposed to look.

Just think for a minute out of all your female friends (and it's starting with the men too) had "loose weight in the new year" on their resolution list?

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So here is a picture of one of my kids that are in my book priceless. This is my son when he was about 9months old after his sister gave him a piece of chocolate that she had left over from Christmas. This is the best picture my husband could get of him.

I personally love this picture as he seems in a state of shock not knowing what Daddy was gonna do with him after this incident. Honestly what do you do when a child looks so shocked that he got busted. NOTHING all you can do is laugh your head off and take a picture.

So there you have it my children...simply being children. You gotta love them!

P.S. My son still loves chocolate *snicker*

Children Having Children

This is what I want to talk about today. It has been an epidemic for literally decades. I found an article in the times that I just want to show you for a second:

Dec. 9, 1985 Before the baby came, her bedroom was a dimly lighted chapel dedicated to the idols of rock 'n' roll. Now the posters of Duran Duran and Ozzy Osbourne have been swept away and the walls painted white. Angela Helton's room has become a nursery for six-week-old Corey Allen. Angie, who just turned 15, finds it hard to think of herself as a mother. " I'm still just as young as I was," she insists. " I haven't grown up any faster." Indeed, sitting in her parents' Louisville living room, she is the prototypical adolescent, lobbying her mother for permission to attend a rock concert. --CLAUDIA WALLIS

Now this should come to no surprise to some of you Babyboomers....considering it is your children wanting to have babie's on their own. Now I am not sure if it is because most of you had children at a young age and now your children think it must have been easy considering they turned out ok. Without realizing the full extend of what you went through.

I myself am born from a Babyboomer, I am now 27 years old and when I went to High School I had a few friends that ended up pregnant at a very young age, as young as 15, but it seems to be getting worse and worse as time goes on.

I wonder where this is coming from, lack of love from their fathers, their mother's being more worried about being friends with their children rather then being a strong roll-parent instead of drinking and partying with their daughters?

Who knows but I want to share with you all a story of a pregnant teen, this is very insightful and I hope to enlighten some ppl out there (ie. teens) on having babie's is not all it's cracked up to be.

You're late. At first you figure it's just nerves. After all, you took precautions. I mean, you were always careful, except maybe that one time...
So you buy one of those home pregnancy tests. You sneak it into the house and spend one crazy, long night reading the instructions over and over again. The next morning, your entire being becomes fixated upon that unmistakable, red POSITIVE circle sitting at the bottom of a plastic tube.
For the first time in your life, you understand the full meaning of the word "panic". Your heart drops into a deep, dark place you had no idea existed in your body, but you know it's not moving until you get yourself out of this mess.
The crazy thing is that while your world is falling apart, some neighbor down the street took that same test and also got a positive. Only she's running down the hall to tell her husband the good news. But life's sort of funny that way.
Okay girls, I know how you're feeling - believe me, 'cause I've been there. Now, we're not going to talk about Pro Life vs. Pro Choice-- this is not about that. This is about taking control of a difficult situation by surrounding yourself with the people who love and care about you the most and getting some good, solid guidance.
Your first step may be to contact a school counselor or empathetic teacher. You'll probably need someone to help you approach your parents. Now you're thinking, "Liz, there's no way I can tell my parents". As rough as this may seem, believe me, it can be done.
I'd like to share something with you. Several years ago I was staring at my positive result at the bottom of a cup. If only I had known then what I know now, but I was just too full of myself to ask for assistance from the right people. I decided to do things my way...

Back then, I figured that "Pro Life" meant no life left for me and whoever coined the phrase "Pro Choice" had a sick sense of humor. I mean wasn't it my need to be free and make my own choices that got me into this mess? Believe me, there was nothing free about being a pregnant teen. And feeling that there was no way out other than abortion wasn't much of a choice.
I couldn't bear the secret alone, so I told my best friend and of course, I alsotold the father. But I guess this news was just too hot for them to handle, 'cause by the time I got to
school, all eyes were on me (or maybe it was just my imagination).
My "trusted" friend volunteered to contact the local abortion clinics. Meanwhile the other "responsible" party figured he could raise at least most of the cash. After all, he was the father.
As the days went by, the panic and fear only became worse. I couldn't sleep. I looked like hell and my body sort of floated through space, like I was no longer grounded and I didn't know where I was headed. And I kept saying over and over to myself, "What have I done? What have I done?"
Then my day at the clinic arrived. He came with me and so did my "friend", who had by now told the whole continent.
The counselors were nice enough. They calmly informed me of the procedure and risks. They answered questions and for one selfless minute I thought to ask, "will the baby - er... fetus, embryo or whatever - feel pain?". But that fleeting thought was overtaken by fears for myself and instead I asked ,"Will this hurt a lot?"
A few hours later, I lay at home no longer pregnant and the relief that I thought I'd feel took the form of reflective depression mixed with anxiety, 'cause I had to keep hiding all bathroom evidence from my mother.
Aside from a phone call, I didn't hear from him much. But that's okay, 'cause I didn't want to repeat this episode again. But believe it or not, two weeks down the road when I was feeling lonely, hurt and vulnerable, he showed up at the door. You see, he had that urge and I was fair game once again. But things were never the same between us.
Hey, don't get me wrong, it's not like I didn't survive all of this. It's just that, well... take it from me, there are some things in life that you never forget.

This next story is of a teen who decided to keep her baby and make a life for her child and her:

Well, I just want to tell my story of how I got pregnant and how I live my life today. When I was 13 years old I meat this guy. He was much older than me, and at first I didn't like him, but as time passed by I kind of "fell in love" with him. He was about 27 and I was 13.

I know what you're thinking - what the heck is a thirteen-year-old girl doing with a 27-year-old guy? I was probably desperate to runaway from my problems at home, and I didn't know I was getting into a deeper problem. My family was O.K. with the relationship, and we were about to get married (with the consent of my mother of course) when I had a problem with my new step-dad. I couldn't stand him. My boyfriend proposed to run away.

We were still going to get married, or at least that's what he said. So one day, I ran away with him. We had the apartment and all the basic necessities. After like two months I became pregnant, at the age of thirteen years old. I wasn't even finished 7th grade! I decided to have my baby. (Don't ask me why. I don't know.)

He ended up cheating on me. I spent six and a half years with this person until I finally decided to end my relationship. I went to school pregnant. All the looks I got, all the comments I received, really affected my life. But I finished junior high and I was on my way to high school. While my friends were thinking on going out to the movies, I had to think about making dinner and changing diapers. It was hard, but I did it. I didn't give up.

I had to wake up at six a.m. to change the baby, dress up, and go to school. I had to be at the bus stop by seven to be in school at 8:15 a.m. (They had childcare in the school, but only if you maintained a good academic grade.) I had to go through childcare, homework, uniforms, and all the rest of that stuff. I was a full-time student and worked part-time, and still had to come home and take care of my son.

I graduated high school with the Class of 1998 with all my friends. I'm currently a college student in California, working toward my accounting degree, and I'm also working full time for a law firm. I just turned twenty and I have a five-year-old boy that waits for me to get home and give me a kiss, and say "I love you mommy." My message to all the teens out there is to never give up, you can make it. Hang on - life is hard, but in the long run, it's worth it. Good luck!

So there you have it, both sides of the spectrum, the key I think to both of these stories is no matter what your feeling go talk to someone. If you can't talk to your parent's at least go talk to a counsellor or a health professional. It doensn't matter who you talk to, but go talk to someone that can help you make the right decision.

Well I guess this blog is a little more serious then the past few, and I really wanted to address this subject as over the holiday's our family had an incident with a young girl doing something that she shouldn't have been doing, it never went as far as intercourse but it was serious enough that, well it was inappropriate for such a young girl.

I remember at the age of 12 I was still playing with Barbie Dolls LMFAO how pathetic is that, and now these 12 yr old's are thinking of how to make their under developed bodies look like they are 25 and how to get to "John's" house to have sex or do some other sexual activity.

I am just afraid for my own daughter, if it is like this now imagine when my daughter is the ripe age of 10yr's old (6.5 more years) what will happen. The old saying "I will lock you in your room till your 30" is starting to sound really good right about now.

Leave me any comments am always happy to hear from ppl and their views.